Ek choti si smriti....

Pata nahi shuruwat kahan se karoon,khud ko katghare mein rakhan hamesha mushkil hota hai, aaj wahi koshish kar raha hoon.
Bachpan ki bahut si yadein hain jisme aksar maine paya ki mein padhai ke liye daant ya mar kha raha hoon, par aaj us daant mein bhi pyar dekh sakta hoon mein.Kya kuch nahi kiya papa ne, office jana, aate hi mujhe padhane ke liye baith jana, par mein bhi thera jiddi,padhta tha to sirf maar ke dar se, phir usi dar ne paas to kara diya par ek kasak baki reh gayi zindagi mein, ki agar shayad maar ke dar ki jagah mann laga ke padhta to shayad aur acha kar sakta tha.
Par jo bhi ho kam se kam wo sanskar jaroor hain mujhme ki zindagi mein aur kuch nahi par ek acha insaan banna jaroori hai.

Baat 11 th class ki hai, mein padhne mein theek thak tha par itna kharab bhi nahi tha.10 th class mein acha tha padhne mein pata nahi kya hua baad mein shayad umra ka padav tha ya vidrohi man kuch aur karne ki lalsa mein apni manzil se bhatak gaya tha.
Khair kisi tarah 11 class ka exam diya, result dekha to supplimentary, vishwas nahi hua ki mein itna bura kar sakta hoon.Supplinmetary Spanish mein thi socha tha 40-45 number ayenge, agar aap 40-45 number soch ke aaoge to pass hona mushkil hi hota hai, yakeen nahi hua par kya kar sakta tha.
10 th mein spanish mein 88 the aur us samay is liye roya tha ki 100 kyun nahi hai , aaj apne result ke liye mein khud hi zimmedar tha.

Papa gaon gaye the, aate hue mere liye 12th class ki kitabein laye the. Pata nahi mere itne aalsipan aur zidd ke baad bhi unhe ye vishwas tha ki shayad mein acha karunga.Aate hi jab pata chala to pehle to bahut naraaz hue maine socha aaj bhi pitayi nishschint hai par thodi der baad papa ne bulaya aur pyar se kaha " jo hua acha nahi hua , par aage acha tum chaho to kar sakte ho, shayad kahin meri bhi galti hai , abhi tumhare paper ko 15 din hai,chalo ache se padhai karna , mein bhi sath mein baithunga tumhe padhane".

Shayad us pyar ka hi asar tha ki mein naye atma vishwas ke sath padhai ko jut gaya.Mere tution sir Mandal sir bhi mere sath jut gaye.Mein man laga ke padhai ki din mein shayad 14-15 ghante se kam nahi padhta tha. Logon se aankh milane mein sharam aati thi isiliye kahin nahi nikalta tha par papa ke kehne pe subah 5 baje ghoomne jata tha taki koi mil na jaye.
Apne sathiyon ko jab khidki se schol jate dekhta tha to bahut dukh hota tha , par sab meri hi karni ka nateeja hai.Kahir 15 din baad paper hua is baar kaafi acha kiya maine ,poori umeed thi ki is baar jaroor pass ho jaunga ache number se.Mere sath mere 2 aur sathi the.Manadal sir ne bhi kaha ki is baar 80 se kam nahi aa sakte,20 marks meri laparwahi aur kharab writing ko dhyan mein rakh ke kata tha.
Do din baad hi papa ki tabiyat kaharab ho gayi aur ve hospital mein admit ho gaye. Result bhi aane hi wala tha.Man pehli baar nahi ghabra tha yakeen tha ki ache number launga.
Result wale din school gaya,mein wait kar raha tha ki result lagane mein der kyun kar rahe hain sab.Tabhi dekha mummy ayi sath mein ek bhaiya bhi aye the , mujhe laga kuch gadbad hai. Dekha to thodi der mein result aa gaya tha. Sirf 1 ladka pass tha aur 2 fail.badkismati meri mera naam bhi fail list mein tha.Sab kuch shunya sa ho gaya tha.Bas itna hi nikla" mein fail nahi ho sakta" ansu kab ankhon se gal pe beh chale, pata hi nahi chala.Shayad gir raha tha par bhaiya ne sambhala. Mummy ko pehle hi principal sir ne phone karke bula liya tha. Jab unke cabin mein gaya to unhone kaha " Manas mujhe yakeen nahi ho raha tum fail ho gaye,tum to ache ladke ho , aur tumhare papa ne bataya ki is baar tumne mehnat bhi bahut ki thi. Mein dekhta hoon mein kya kar sakta hoon".Khair ghar aye, phone ki ghanti baje hi jaa rahi thi pata nahi papa ki tabiyat poochne ke liye ya mujhe santwana dene ke liye.
Maine kamre mein khud ko band kar liya tha.Bahut niraash ho chala tha man.Papa bhi agle din discharge hokar aa gaye the .Bade pyar se unhone smajhaya " Kabhi zindai mein safalta nahi milti,par tumne mehnat ki thi aur mujhe yakeen hai ki tum pass jaroor hoge, mein dekhta hoon kya kar sakta hoon tumhare liye."
Pehli baar papa ka wo roop dekha tha , bachpan se maar aur daant ki aadat thi , bhale hi meri galti ho ya na ho, aur yahan pe itni badi galti aur sirf pyar. Man mein baut chubhan si thi.Mere ek teacher ka phone aaya ahmedabad se wo mere primary school ke teacher the.Unhone papa se baat ki aur kaha ki Manas kabhi fail nahi ho sakta wo ek acha student hai.Phir unhone papa ko re evaluation ki baat baat batayi aur papa ko kaha ki principal sir se baat karein.

Isi beech ek vakya hua,Agle din mein subah utha aur laga ki ek bura sapna dekh raha tha,ghadi dekha 7: 15 ho gae the.Maine Jaldi se kapde pehne aur dining table pe baith gaya aur mummy se kaha, jaldi nashta laga dijiye school ke liye late ho raha hoon. Dekha to mummy chup chap thi aur unke anhon mein bhi ansoo the.Ehsaas hua ki ye sapna nahi sach tha.Bahut nirasha si hui dil mein, sar bhari sa ho gaya tha, kisi tarah kamre mein gaya aur takiye mein sir chupa ke chupchaap rone laga.Kab aankh lagi pata hi nahi chala.Papa ne 1 ghante baad principal sir ko phone kiya aur unse baat ki " Sir mein janta hoon ki result aa gaya hai par is baar mujhe manas pe yakeen hai ki wo fail nahi ho sakta.App ho sake to manas aur uske doosre dost ka re-evaluation ke liye process initiate kijiye.Agar wo fail hai to use fail hi rehne dijiye par agar wo pass hai to uska 1 saal bachane ki zimmedari meri aur apki dono ki hai".School ke itihaas mein pehli baar aisa ho raha tha.Hum dono ki copy 3 alag alag school mein gayi. Aur pata chala ki har school ke re-check mein pass tha mein.

Badkismati se mera dost pass nahi tha.Dukh hua par khushi bhi hui ki mera atma samman bach gaya,Papa ne mere spanish teacher ke liye itna hi kha mujhse , ki jo kiya unhone galat kiya par iska matlab ye nahi hai ki tum unki respect nahi karoge.Unhe phir bhi samman dena. "

Man nahi man raha tha par pitaji ne kahan tha isisliye mana bhi nahi kar sakta.Jo hua acha nahi hua par shayad un lamho ne mujhe bahut sikha diya aur sath hi acha insaan bane rehne ki prenna bhi di.Pariwar ka mahatwa bhi usi samay pata chala.Pata chala papa humse pyar jarror karte hai bas jatate nahi maa ki tarah.Unka tareeka kuch aur hota hai, bas hame samajh aana chahiye.
Mein apne ghar walon ko shayad usi samay sabse jyada samajh saka aur zindagi ka sabse khoobsoorast ehsaas bhi diya " Mera pariwar hamesha mere sath hai aur meri rakhsa karenge aur mujhse bahut prem karte hain"
Wahi pal tha jab se mere zindagi mein, mere pariwaar ki ehmiyat sabse jyada ho gayi aur samajh aaya ki jo log apse nafrat karte hain unhe bhi pyar se jeeta jaa sakta hai.Bas yahi nahi aaya ki ek teacher apne student se aisa kaise kar sakte hain aur agar mein teacher ya kuch bhi banunga to kabhi kisi se nafrat ya bhed bhav nahi karunga.Aaj bhi mein is baat pe kayam hoon.



Sach hai kabhi kabhi zindagi ke sabse mushkil pal apke sabse yaadgar pal ban jaate hain aur sath hi bahut kuch acha sikha jaate hain.
Love u my family n friends for ur unconditional love and suppport.Thnx for being part of my life.

Note:Its a fictional story